Apparently January 19th is the most depressing day of the year, with January 19, 2009 being the most depressing of the depressing. I had never heard this before, but I found it interesting to
read about. Contributing factors include the fading memories of Christmas cheer, broken New Year's resolutions, winter weather, and holiday bills in the mail. This year, in particular, the economy is adding to people's woes.
I work in a bank, and have witnessed the difficulties people are facing, and have spoken to many of our wealthier clients who are seeing their investments tumble. I have no answers for people on either side of the problem -- those who are losing their jobs, or those who are losing their profits -- but I know that no matter what I am facing, my only option is to choose joy.
As someone who struggles privately with major ups and downs, I ask God every day to give me a joyful heart. I have thought a lot about the difference between being happy and being joyful. Thankfully, I am usually happy
and joyful. There are days, though, when the happy hides and the joyful tries to duck out of sight. For me, thankfully, today was not one of those days, and Elizabeth and I had a fun day in and out of the snow, but I can empathize with the 'millions' (as the article claims) who will have chosen today to stay home and away from the world.
Our journey over the past few months involved a lot of uncertainty and a great deal of trusting in God. Towards the end, once we realized we could not sell our house, it looked as if we would have the house and no job for Steve. We knew that God could have sold our house for us, if that was His will, but in His mercy, He provided a way for us to stay in our home and at our beloved
church. I had to cling to my belief that He had a plan for us, whether that meant moving and starting all over again, or staying and waiting for Him to show us what to do next. I pray that my life during those months showed more joy than stress, even if I really had no idea how it was all going to work out.
Today, January 19th, was just another day for me. I shovelled, did laundry, played Wii, fed children, made beds, went to work and took out the garbage. I'm glad I didn't know it was supposed to be a depressing day. I asked God for joy this morning and I know He always provides. Some days it's easier than others to choose to receive that joy, but it's always there for me to accept. It's joy that I want my children to learn, and it's a daily exercise for me to model it for them.
Speaking of exercise, tomorrow will be here before I know it. The gym is waiting! I'd better get to bed!
Mommy